Going Through Infertility Again

Where to begin… if this isn’t the first post of mine you’ve read, you know that I have an amazing, beautiful, year and a half old daughter, Kara. I got pregnant with her through intrauterine insemination (IUI): a fertility treatment that involves placing sperm inside a woman’s uterus to facilitate fertilization. The goal of IUI is to increase the number of sperm that reach the fallopian tubes and subsequently increase the chance of fertilization. You can read about my experience HERE. We got super lucky and got pregnant on the first cycle, but normally it can take up to 3 or 4 cycles.

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A cycle includes giving myself injections for 10-14 days in my tummy and going into the doctor every few days for sonograms and blood work so they can see how much the follicles grow. Once I have 1 or 2 follicles that are mature (have an egg to release) I take a trigger shot and that tells my body to ovulate and release the egg(s). I then go in 36 hours later with Todd’s collected sperm and they use a catheter to inject it into my uterus. Then I wait two weeks to find out if I’m pregnant.

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To say that the process is emotionally and physically exhausting is an understatement. Your body goes through so many changes, I mean, hormones are raging through your system, that you’re not used to having. Bloating, moodiness, irritability, tiredness, the list goes on. They tell you not to stress (obviously) but at the same time, I was supposed to stop working out/running and “be lazy.” I get it, I really do, but when your stress relief is being active, it really sucks.

Injections

Meds from Kara

So here we are 5 cycles later, with no baby. Three of the cycles failed and two of my cycles were cancelled because of over-stimulation, which can result in multiples. Our insurance doesn’t cover anything infertility related, so we are deep into it money wise. I’ve gained a few pounds from the lack of exercise, increased hormones and plain ole emotional eating. All of that combined leaves me in a weird place. I have my good and bad days, my ups and my downs. I’m trying to stay positive, but it’s tough, especially when social media is full of runners getting/ or who are pregnant. Make me jealous, envious and happy for them all at the same time. I really just try and think about the amazing kid that I already have and that usually helps <3

Good Morning Kara

You may have noticed my random spouts of running for a few days to a week and then stopping… those are the day between cycles when I have more “freedom.” We’ve recently switched practices and should be starting a new round in a few weeks. There is so much more to the past 5-6 months than can fit in a post, or that you’d care to read, haha, so I’ll spare you… unless you want to know, and if so, please ask! I’m an open book.

Banana with Kara

Linking up with Thinking Out Loud Thursdays by Amanda at Running with SpoonsPenny’s Passion and Home of Malones 🙂

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  1. I’m so sorry that this go-round is more difficult than a couple of years ago. I feel for you. We had IVF success on our second try in 2014, and had four embryos left over to freeze. I just went through a frozen embryo transfer on June 7, and found out on Monday that neither one stuck. So, we’re trying one last time with the remaining two embryos in September (soonest they’ll do it). I’m trying to stay positive, and hope you will too, but it’s rough. I’m too old (unlike you!) to go through a full IVF again, so if this last time doesn’t take, then we’ll be a one-child family. I’m SO grateful for my little girl, but I always thought we would have at least two children. Best of luck to you!

    • And best of luck to you!!! September seems like such a long time, but I understand you’re body needs to be ready. I’m so impatient, haha. It’s always good to “talk” with other people going through something similar. It’s such a sucky situation to be in. Here’s to positivity and babies!!!

  2. I am so sorry you are going through all of this! I can’t even begin to imagine the emotional and physical toll this takes on you and your husband. I thought period hormones were bad, but I can’t imagine all the things you go through with injecting yourself and all the fluctuating hormones. Your daughter is incredibly beautiful though and has the sweetest smile. Sending love and prayers to you and your family <3

    • Thank you so much Rachael! It’s like your period times 100, haha. BUT you’re right… I have a beautiful daughter already and am so happy for her.

    • Thanks, Emily. I think it will help me feel better being able to talk about it on the blog and not be so secretive.

  3. Sorry you’re having to go through infertility treatments again. I’m glad you’re sharing your story though because it seems helpful to have others to talk to about it, and know that your’e not the only one with this kind of story. Try to keep up that positive outlook and I’ll be thinking of you as you continue on this journey!

    • Thanks, Kristen! You “came into my life” as I was just starting my journey to having Kara! Boy does time fly! If all else fails, I have her <3

  4. We too did iuis until it ended in miscarriage and they moved us on to IVF. I understand the frustration and tears and hopes up and down. Praying for success and a peaceful heart!

    • I’m hopping over to you page to stalk, haha. Thank you, thank you! I think a peaceful heart will help result in success <3

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